Back For Good (No, Not A Take That Tribute)

Right off the bat I have to admit that I’m being a bit naughty with the heading of this post. One thingthe last three months have taught me again and again is that it doesn’t matter how much I believe certain things are permanent and unmoveable, as long as I live there will be no such thing other than the enduring faithfulness of God. I would love to believe that this blogging deal is back on and will stay for the long term, but I know that won’t be the case and won’t bank on it.

I can say, that the idea was still to blog regularly. I remember at the outset of the year being really keen ongetting a blog entry out every day – it was a realistic goal and it still is, but even the best laid goals countfor little if they clash with life issues. I didn’t breakdown when the streak ended, there were perfectly reasonable explanations for the loss which I could go into, but it’s not worth it other than to say a criminal activity took place of which I was the victim and it ended with no one hurt and eventually here I am back online again.

The sporadic blogging was painful for me in the sense that I’ve grown accustomed to at least having this as an avenue to express whatever there was to express and without it and the daily regime of writing andbeing disciplined to put together what was there. Sometimes it worked, sometimes it didn’t, some stuff was good, some stuff wasn’t, but it was there and for those high points it was worth it. Yeah there’s an element of an audience that’s important, but even that has to be taken with a pinch of salt in comparison to the importance of ensuring that what is produced is the best of what I can produce to the only audiencethat matters.

So what I mean by the title of this blog is not that I’m not back for ever and there’s nothing that is goingto get in my way of posting regularly. Rather it means I’m back for the point of posting good stuff onthis blog. That is the good that I’m back for. I do hope to pick up the level of regularity that summed up earlier this year, but even more than that I’m in it to make sure whatever is on here is classed as good.

There is a lot to catch up on, there are a lot of things I have been thinking and acting out and there are still things occupying my thoughts that I’m eager to write about to get the internal conversation out there. Someof it is about spiritual/churchy/Jesus related stuff and there are off-shoots of that regarding implications forkey relationships, personal vocation, attitudes to politics and the rest.

For example as with some of the stuff that was written earlier this year, I’m still considering some of thebasics. It would be easy to take some stuff for granted, but I have three daughters that I am responsiblefor in terms of their upbringing. Now a lot of that isn’t about verbal communication but the example theysee and the way of integrity in which my fundamental motivating forces of life are expressed. I have to explain to these girls about God, Jesus, the Bible, church, relationships, family, love and righteousness (yeah, Deborah can say that word like a pro now … almost, just got to get Abigail into it). I cannot afford to take things for granted in the hope that they will not grow up to do so.

It’s good to have to go back and recount again why I believe what I believe and exactly what that is – evenif I’m not 100% sure, even if it is not convincing, even if it leaves more questions than answers. It’s good,and if the girls are anything like their father then I’m sure they’ll explore these things further as they lookto live out what will be a faith of their own should they choose to accept the divine relationship.

It is an interesting juncture to be exploring these issues with the flux that I’m going through, but it is no less important and the findings that I am reaching and living out. Hopefully the entries in the blog will reflect that as with all the other aspects that comprise life with the man CD. In the meantime, thanks for your patience and here’s to some more entries – for good!

For His Name’s Sake

Shalom

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