Insecurity is quite something.
I watched a guy who was in charge of a project. When it came to giving an update on the project, I saw the guy make defensive comment after defensive comment all in a bid to make his project look good. It wreaked of a dude who was heavily insecure. In light of his perceived inadequacies, rather than be honest or at least not highlight the deficiencies, he made it tragically obvious.
Inadequacy is quite something.
Being aware of my weaknesses, seeing the flaws in my character and having to engage with humanity, sometimes I get caught up in myself and don’t feel up to it. As in up to anything at all. Self doubt became so crippling at one stage I thought I was a fraud as a husband, father, brother and a man. That’s a dangerous place to be.
Being insecure and feeling inadequate is something I spot in others and I am aware of it in myself. The route to any sense of freedom is not to see myself in terms of my limitations and weaknesses. It’s not about what I cannot do. It’s not about feeling inadequate. It’s again looking to Jesus the author and finisher of the faith. It’s recognising again that though I sinned, He forgave me and forgives me as I confess. It’s remembering again that my relationship with Him gives my life meaning.
Trusting Him deeply helps me not only overcome any insecurity or inadequacy, He reassures me that in Him I find complete sufficiency. As He calls me to be a man, He gives me the strength, wisdom and sensitivity to be a man. As He calls me to be a husband, He patterns faithfulness in how He engages with His wife, He puts in place role models who exemplify His character for me to follow. As He calls me to be a father, He points to the relationship He has with His Father and how as a son I can learn from the Father.
Whatever He calls me to, His Spirit enables me to live it. With every success in every aspect of life He proves Himself over and over. I can trust Him. I choose to trust Him.
There is no insecurity in Him. There is no inadequacy in Him. To Him belongs all credit for His greatness.
For His Name’s Sake
Shalom
C. L. J. Dryden
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