This is just me thinking out loud blog-style.
I am getting to the place where I’m relaxed about the fact that because of a number of factors I am the way I am. no point in getting all wound up about it. It is what it is and there is no changing the past.
What can change, however, is the present.
That can change in the light of some things.
A greater desire to know Jesus by the Holy Spirit. That desire leading to daily encounters in life situations that stimulate a Christlike attitude and behaviour.
It is easy to get caught up with other people’s style of learning and growing in knowing Jesus. It is important to follow people’s examples when it is evident they are following Christ. But even then, that following is only in as much as it enables your own ability to discern what God is saying to you and for you and for others.
The deal of responsibility is that when it comes down to it, I won’t be able to blame my parents, the church in which I grew up, the conditions that influenced my formative years or anything else for my current life trek. Sure, I read the doctrinal statements, I heard the teaching and preaching, I took part in the services. This, however, does not rob me of the opportunity to exercise my brain and think, and use my spiritual senses to seek God and see what He has to say.
This opens up a lot of opportunities for Jesus to write the script. As living letters of God using every day opportunities to spell Jesus out for people, that should not be hindered by my distraction with other ‘worthwhile’ causes like adherence t the traditions of men, or the norms of society. Jesus writing the script should see a difference in my story.
I am also of the view that this story should involve personal and corporate transformation in the light of who Jesus is and there really should be a difference in who I am, and who we are and an impact on the world around us. that should really happen, when Jesus writes the script.
With three daughters looking on, they likewise should be witnesses of the change, and whether they take the journey for themselves, there should be a life example for them to see. My wife as an intimate should be able to report to others that she married a man who was flawed and had his faults, but nevertheless noticeably changed as he grew in the grace and knowledge of Jesus.
The community of faith to which I contribute should likewise share such a testimony. Not because it’s crucial to my ego, or that it matters for my CV or for the sake of others. It’s a witness. That happens when Jesus writes the script.
For His Name’s Sake
Shalom
C. L. J. Dryden
