Another Christopher Confessional

I don’t have to write this, I know that.  I take responsibility for what I write on here, good, bad and indifferent.  The written word is not the best forum for everything and some things are best done in a more suitable environment.  However, some things are good to make a record of in the written word.

If I am honest with you, and lets face it there’s a lot less effort maintaining honesty than deception, sometimes I want to pack it all in.  I want to pack in the God business.  I want to pack in the marriage business.  I want to pack in the family and being a dad business.  I want to pack in the being a brother and a friend business.  I want to pack in the being an employee business.  Sometimes I want to pack it all in.  Sometimes it is not worth the bother.  The hassle, the grief, the misunderstanding, the abuse, the cries, the shrieks, the moans, the complaints, the stupid things said, the stupid things done.  Sometimes I add the whole thing up and being the keen mathematician I am I discover that it really doesn’t add up.  It doesn’t add up and it doesn’t make sense.

At those times when the maths suggests its better to pack it all, someone gives me a new calculator.  I put in all the figures I did before adding in me own self-pity on top and then someone tells me to subtract Jesus from all of that.

Ah.

Oh.

I see.

So packing it all in, especially the Jesus deal, well, that would just be about the most foolish thing I could do.  If I take on the Jesus deal, then, I’ve got to take all the other stuff as well.  Yet I’ve also missed something in the deal.  That something being that right in the middle of the grief, misunderstanding, abuse, etc. etc. there is the presence of the most important being in all creation.  Right in the middle of it.  Sometimes sitting and watching, often reaching out and challenging me to grow up.

So, when I finish moping and sighing, I get the courage from Him to take my responsibilities like the son of the Father would and get on with making the most of the abundant life He has given.

For His Name’s Sake

Shalom

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